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8/30/09
Well, I am just sitting here at Starbucks, and I am
waiting for Maryann. Madison and I are enjoying
our mocha drinks, and skilling some time. I just
bought a case for my Tilt, so I need to have better
access to my phone. May Ann is getting her eye
brows plucked, and we have to be to church by
6 Pm, so we have about an hour or so before we need
to go. Tomorrow is the first day of school, some
will get some pictures beforehand. So, anyway, I
would like to get to bed at a decent time and are
able to get up around 6 an. Being that it is the
first day of school, I need to get there with some
time to spare. Early is on time. also, lots of other
things, like Madison eating after school and before
breakfast, and getting Shelby toe fixed, and lots of
other thump. I know that it is a must to get my
and completed. Hopefully there will not heavy boomed
cheeks, ms Fi, etc, that I would not want to come out.
anyway, I am feeling better now, then I did earlier.
I was sort of nauseous, but I know that the
more I Aid in God, and know that He is in
charge and sovereign overall thugs, the more
peace that I am able to have. so, anyway, I am
looking forward to tomorrow and the change of the
girls back into school. I thank God for all It is
blessings, provisions and grace. I pay for continued
blessing, and pray that God can use me as an effective
vessel to serve Him. in Jesus Name, Amen.
9/3/09
well, I am just sitting here at Peets. 4 came down
to get some coffee. I am looby forward to today; there
is going to be lots of good and exciting things Aday.
It will be exciting for Tomme ilintoehs visit to
ponderosa His. and also to go to the Ice oreana
social amgth. It will be good to feellowshp
with the school staff and with the other dudent
threes. I know that it will be nice to share
and talk about how on summer has gone. also,
it will be nice to get to be able to go to sun splash
tomorrow. I think that shethp toe is healed enough
and he jumps around ability to get and go to where
she will be able to get back into soccer. also, I
am looking forward to aurand starting next week.
I know that I missed the first leader meeting, but
should be able to catch up and do the belile study
and verse tests for the kids. I know Madison
will be looking forward to me being in it, so,
anyway, I am going to get some reading done here
and be able to get caught up on my entendres, and
be able to check out my email, etc, to be able to
get abmps done today. I pray for Gods grace and
mug, and pray for His blessings, and ash
at 1 can be used as an effective instrument
for Him. I pray for the fruit of the spirit: tandus,
gentleness, peace, patience, long-suffering,
meehan, humility, self-control, lone, joy,
and peace. I ash for all this in Jesus
name, Amen.
91.9109
Well, I am just setting here at cafe santoro. It is
nice to just get out of the house and enjoy time
together out in public. I feel a little under the
weather today. I am not sure what the sore
throat is, but throat lozenges and lots of Hzo
and autumn c are a big help. so, we just got
done at Hollywood Video. I got Rode Band "The
Beatles" and I know that the girls will enjoy
the game. also, we went to the soccer store
and got Madison some shorts, and also I got
a goalie shirt, so she could have something
good to wear for the gamero. so, anyway, it is
nie to spend time. with May ann alone, as
opposed to being ttmth the kids all the time.
I know that he got a lot done yesterday with
the laundry, lawns, and basic tstoughtenuy
up that we can talk and visit together.. I know
that we are busy, but it is also healthy to
keep healthy in our relationship, and not just
only talking about bells, wah, and parenting.
I know that the little time that we spend together
does really mahe all the difference. so, anyway,
I pray that we can used effectively to bring
glory and honor to God. I pay that we can use
the resources includes time, money, energy
to tug about Glay to God. I pay for Gods grace
and mercy, and I ash all of this in Jesus 1
name-Amen.
9/10/09
well, I am just sitting here at Starbuck in
common Pork. I just dropped off Madison and Skelly
off at school. They don't want to go to dayem today,
so they can come home and relax a little bit before
the AWANA. I know that they are both excited that
Maryann and I are dong it again. I know that it
sends a good message to the girls that we support
and are passionate about their spiritual growth
and then walk with chest. It isn't so much
about how much attention I get for the moh a
talents 1 or whatever I buy to church with me but
how I can glorify Christ, I know that being a leader
is having the opportunity to impact kids for chest.
I know that I can find lots of reasons to say why
I don't want to do it, but I know that keeping holy,
and being a living witness for chat both in and
out of chuchr is important. I know that right now
as we are going through the book of James, I am very
convicted in many ways of my own sens of partiality,
and different external factors of looby at people.
I know that as the Holy spirit connects me, I am able
to grow-in my sanctification, and daily mund-
renewal. I know that I can do all things through
christ who strengthens me. I pray that I can let
my light so shine that others can see my good
works and praise my father in 7 teaser. I pray for
the fruit of the spirit: kindness, Gentleness, peace,
Patience, Long-suffering, sore, Joy, self-control.
I pray this all in Jesus name. Amen.
91/s/09
well, I am just sitting here in a starbuck. I am going
up to see Grandma this morning, so I thought I would
gone her time to sleep in and rest, and let some of my
coffee tuch i. It is good because, I need to get some
dumps done today. I feel oh, but i shouldn't have had
that second glass of wine last night. anyway, I can't
believe that A edem lost I thought he would win
another Grand slam, but the 20 p ofdf 616" took
him out. so, anyway, that is the end of the VSTA
for the year, I know that the build up and the
anticipation for the us open has been great, and
c. really would like to get into play again, I know
that my physique could indefinitely use it. so, anyway,
c. appreciate Grandma offering to help out and
guitar expenses are definitely high. I know that
it is something Madison really wanted. so, I will
try to catch up with Gail, to fix the computer,
e., or whatever she needs done. I pray for EDD
to continue if possible, get caught up in our
mortgage, PCs pay ed up, girls to do well, in
soccer, overall family weight-loss and heath,
peace at chruch with other believers, may otha
ship that are on my heart. I pray for Gods
grace and mercy, and pray that I can let my
light so shine, and others can see my good
works, and praise my Father in heaven, I pray
f. the Fund of the spurt: landman, Gentleness,
Peace, Patience, Long-suffering, Meehan, Humility, self
control, lone, joy. all in Jesus Name-Amen.
9/17/09
well, I am just sitting here at starbuck, A Doratea Hills
d. just dropped the girls off and decided to come to this
stars budy, because I have not been here for a while.
g. I darted watching the soloist last night, but it
looked like a liberal agenda movie, so I decided
b. pass, so, any way, what a difference a day makes.
From a few days ago mih body aches, and popping
adrie • today, I definitely feel much better. so,
this is the second swans and I am excited, even
though I was hesitant at first, I know it means
a lot to Madison and-Shebby to see us in Arrows, as
examples. so, anyway, it will be good to help the
little toys and teaching them verses. I know it
seeps me focused on my own walk and heiny an
ambassador for chest myself. so, anyway, I know
the next few days will be busy with swans, then
soccer test, and early games, so I pray that
i. can home the stamina and pace myself. I know
that the girls are really eyoiyy school, and I would
e. to help Gail with the computers, but just gettig
v. there and iabwphy the classes is not my joy to
w. so, we will touch bases. I know that it will
he good to get pumped up for soccer on Friday. I Know
Madison will be darty goalie. so, anyway, shelter
toe in fathy off, so I home to see about treatment.
angry, I home lots on the plate, and I pray for
Gods grace and mercy; for the fruit of the spurt:
kindness, Gentleness, Peace, patience, Long-saffemj,
Joy, Lore, self-control ale in Jesus Naone, amen.
9/23/09
well, I am just sitting here at starbuck, and I am
wanty for them to fix Many amis the, so I am down
here until I get a phone-call that it is ready, which
is good for me to get some stuff done, rather than
out there and spend a ton of money in the store, but
I did get some stuff at both samir club and Costco,
not to mention getty gas at arco. I feel much bette
after staley the fish oil this morning, it defended
makes a big difference in how I feel. I figure if
I take one pill in the morning, and one pill in
the evening of 900mg. that shadid be more than odeya
ate for me. I know that my body reacts to devot
ton and changes toomey medi so lahman that Keeping
consistent it the key, so I will be able to get back
on track, and feel better, also get more regular.
I know that the body is the temple of the holy
spirit, so Ahnj care of it, is a dewardship
of enfdahnj care of and being responsible for
what God has abated me with. That goes for
other areas of life including i diet, exercise.
abstinence from both sexual and alcohol in
abuses or deviation, and perversion, but ter
be content with what God has blessed me with.
so, anyway, this week we are celebrating Grandparents
day, and even though Grandma is 92, we can attend
be acknowledging her, and may amis parents,
if they want to game down from arnold in anyway
it will be nice if Joan does, with a smile on her
face, alleast, for her to show that
she cares, not because I am aslnj, but because
she wants to, so, anyway, I know that getty a good
rights sleep is key. I will need to call Jacob Aught,
so I need to see if I can get a hold of him after
dinner some time. so, I will be able to attend the conform
a- this Saturday. I know that Madison will have a
game around 11:45, and I can't come, but Shely
will have a tye, which works out well, and also,
l can attend the conference, even though I said
that I couldn't at first. so, it was good to run
into Mike Giffin. I didn't realize that he was back
in the area, which, I guess he said that he was
n Pollock. so, anyway, Mary arm is sleeping still,
nd she probably mort want to get up for a while,
hat at least, getty her a chance to sleep is good. I an
elated to get more mouse pads. I-Beam sermon and the
Rob Morgan Dish I-s of hoops sermons, so I can
see how they are imported into the software. so anyway,
I am ney thankful son so many thp i Health, a home,
cars that dure, mikes opportunities, swann, PCs,
oc BC, webmaster, comp adu, Mary am worley,
Madison and shely's health, soccer, dame,
guitar, the doop, opportunities a coach, help out
with amana, helping Grandma, and her support,
rodi mud, Beta letty oppabthes, only with the
technology, dorton medicines, gord insurance, his
of educational opportunities, stennis, soccer, sports, exercise
and opportunities for work, financed help from the state,
and I pay for Gods grace in Jesus hang Amen.
9/27/09
Well, I am just setting here at the counter at Grand
at home. so, after Fridays incident I am still here
e. Grandmas and Aging A heal and let time pass. I
know that the stupidity of not letting it go (Moon
and Bohart coming because Joan didn't apologize) blew
up in my face. The pride and broadcasting on my
part, even when may arm was trzy to make it right
was adaptable. I guess saying It should have"
i. an understatement. Right now, after just a few
days apart from Many ann Madison and Shely, show
how important my family really is to me, and how
unimportant all the other thugs are eg purchases,
little annoyances, bills and other thugs really are.
I know God is really testing me regal know and
the grace that was so abundant seems less
rustle. I am so thankful that at least Grandin
has let me stay here for a few days, and she
(Grandma is toby to Bill right now and Aging
to explain what is gory on. I know that I dott
rant to overstay my welcome and Grandma is being
so long. that I am grateful and thankful for that.
l know that benz proactive right now and not falling
into self-pity and depression is very important. The
exercise up the hill makes a good difference in how I
m fahij, I don't have much of an appellate at all.
- randma is the same way. I know that prayer and
me and healing are all very important. I called
MHN thu, 4 may omni work, and talked to an intake
counselor and he (Scott) rfefaedmeout-
i. some counsellors in Cameron Park. I know that if
combined with that, May ann can set up some counselling
for us both. I think just like Yem said that Roan and
hot helping to clean up mel make a help toward keeping
the house presentable if cps comes begg. I know that
they can and will pursue this, and 0 well droll in my
sower thayn Gods grace to make charges that need
to be made, with my anger and fejhhg with may
ama, which doesn't buy glory to God, which is the
reason we are put here. The officer was dead on when
he said that my daughters are goya to grov up and
margy an abuser. I obviously would not want that.
l know that God will not be mocked and the
government does not bear the sword in main. I pay
for mercy, which is all I can do. I know that any
self-righteousness and my part, that is not chests
imputed, unearned, unmerited, undeserved righteousness
i. the only righteousness that I really have, and the
rest are just filthy rgsq. so I pay for healey aid
guidance. I am thankful that Pastor Jeng listened to my
shore call, and will pay with the elders in discretion.
I am thankful for so many tags: Benz failed ontcbteally),
Grandma letting me stay here, may ann talks to me last
agat, buzis the meds and clothes up, rob and Joan
Way out, may ann mahy an effort to get help,
Grace and meury. A pay for healy; getty any land of
joh, health and peace in the family, Madison and shellys
elfau, my own repentance, spread healy, loving
nd concern for another, I ask all this in Jesus name. Amon.
10/20/09
well, I am just sitting here at Peto Coffee in A Dorado
Iii.. I just dropped the girls off at school. I am exiled
because I will be doing practice this week on my own
because coach Don will be away, so I will have
a plan, maybe with Madison helping out, well see,
maybe ashley man can help. so, I am glad that I
found this pen behind the chair, because I thought
e lost it, which would have been over $ too doan the
rain, which is good, that I didn't lose it. also, I
band my swiss any pen, another $ roo. D think it is
important to keep track of my belongings, and be up-
usable ivhout, being overly concerned with material
things. so, anyway, there is some low lying fog down
here today, which makes it cold outside weth sun higher
up the hill. sramyway, Mary Ann and I are doing.
better. I think that keeping the peace and keeping
focused on what we need to work on is absolutely
essential. I know that I need to work on controlling
my anger, and leaming to take time oats, and keep
tame on the tongue. also, keeping the home as
a relatively quiet place free of screaming and
outbursts, and filled with tone and peace and
safe bepace to raise the children, model a marriage
nd be a spiritual leader to my family. I know
hat we are still under the 30 day on arguments, or
verbal altercation agreement with El Dorado county
- PS, and Praise God they dropped the case at the
)-A.'s office, and the Bail had been paid. I know
that thump could have very easily
gore south fast, so I am so grateful for Gods
grace and many. I know that not norbury and my
health issues are not an excuse to take out on those
that I love, so I can take steps to express my feelings
and deal with thugs in a biblically healthy way.
I know that truly, the ranger of man does not achieve
the righteousness of God. so, anyway, I appreciate
all the help from Grandma letty me stay and avoid
jail time, may ann taking me back, Pastor Jemp
prayer and concern and encouragement, pastor Phili
pager, books, the Tripp conference to equip thay am
and I in our Parents, Gods amending grace, Tims
encouragement, Billi understanding of May amis
and I hitting a "bump in the road", our mortgage
comp amys patience, PCs's patience I the D. As offve
noto prosecuting me and avoiding a year in jail, $ woo
dollar fine, permanent loss of my firearm, etc,
Bob and Barbara helpnj watch the kids, Bob and
Joan thyng to keep the peace, Joan helping A clean
up, Roh helping to deem up, intercessory prayer on
the part of our elders, tact and trust of sensate
information, Loris counsehij cps's patience, our
huch, friends, family, may arms patience to work
out on issues. I know that county my blessings is
so important Ron 8:28 albthnpworh together for good
even the thugs we dort want, and knowing God as complete
ly and sovereignty in control. I pay for Gods grace
and mercy and pay all of this in Jesus mame,
amen.
11/10/09
Well, I am just sitting here at Peets coffee and
l just completed my bible tshudy, and organized my
Planning and solitude, and it has been a while since
l have youvraled, so I figure I can get some
journaling done honour. so, anyway, I got into an
argument last night mith May amn. It was about
her not wanting to do the beauty and the arts of the
R-c. sproul collection, and then I mentioned that
it wasn't very offutt, but she seemed so hostile
to any kind of bible study,-that to do Dust to Glory
or calvin Amazing Grace or even the adult Belle
explorers curriculum together would be even more
sfvshabiy to go through together. I know that the
Ephesians study could be a good thug, where we
would go through it Together and be able to enjoy a
relaxing time felloushipvy and reading Ephesians
which covers so much rich spiritual food, so any
way, I pray that God would soften her heart to
be at least open to some study together. so, I wed
• bed at about 7:30 Pm, so I got plenty of sleep
last night, so I know that yelling and getting
all up in a lathe, or trying to force my point dr
not do sampling i and coming back to what Lori said
about not using forms of coercion to try to get my
way are absolutely essential. I know that by cont
inning to work on the anger book, and on Wayne
mrachi biblical sliney interpersonal and marriage
problems. book, 1 can get more in tune with what
1 need to do, to improve both myself
and Mays Ann and my relationship. so, I know-that
b. keeping my cool, I can allow maryam to think
about what she wants to do; I know that forcing
her to get overwhelmed with all of this abbed study
on top of work would be counterproductive, yet just
donya A News, not doing her daily bible study, and
reins her frustrated, moody, Mutable, obsessing
about money, the house, bills, and just worrying
i. not hasty in God. Matt 6:22. so, anyway, I know
that not being loohj at the speech in my brothers for sister
ze) and the log in my own, so I know that "forcing"
may ann, are opposed to presenting a study as sosnetby
that she can benefit from would be more beneficial,
and the girls can see us reiterating in an hooraying way,
and we wouldn't be arguing, if we are engaged in a
bible study, and focused on spntualothmp, because,
it would be a positive replacement of something good,
as opposed to leaving a vacuum for negativity to
return-son, Lord, I pay for Gods grace and may.
l pray for the fruit: of the sprite: kindness, gentleness,
Peace, Patience, Long-suffering, meekness, Hamlets,
self-control, Lone, joy; against such ahsing, there
is no law. I am being converted on I ca 1}, and seeing
how lach of love in fellowship is something that f.
need to work on. I pray fa a good veteran Day,
and for those who have served our county, and
I pay for Gods grae and mercy, and ask this all
in Iyesas precious name. Amen.
11/12/09
well, I am just sitting here at coffee Republic
tour in 7 olson I decided to come down here to get
out of the house and clear my head, I have a parent
eacho conference with Madison and Shelby's teacher
f- 2:00, 2:20 today, so I would like to be aware
'how they are doing. anyway, it is nice to see the
lear air after the rain Today, and the nice clean
ii. outside. I know that coney here gives me an
Indiana Jones feel with all the Jungle theme and
lochs, old book e. so, anyway, I had a good
d- together with those guys pretty together the
software for the schools, to prevent ailor types
e crimes, and monitor behunin. I was a little
any orn from the night before, so it would be
vi. to take care of myself. I know that I ordered
the Portfolio Edition, because it was 25 % off,
and only available to the beta-testen and not to the
general population, so I will need to make room
for $180 / mr to come out. Hopefully, EDD will come
bachand the mortgage paperwork will go through
Lord, willy AH 860 per month. I know that I lot
the guy on the phone about 3N-3500 per paycho
for Many arm, but her pay chech average
at least 4000-Tsou-sometimes, which is asthma
off, so I think that the mortgage company wants to
establish that we are not able to pay, because of
ravine issues. If they determine that the credit is
bad, after the fact, I don't thh grey up on
privacy on the credit scores, and
being reassessed based on iacunstanes, I think we
would definitely be able to take some credit coarsely
but to make the payments to our creditors is just
not possible, considers the fact that utilities, etc,
ost of brig and all the other thugs involved would
make it an undue hardship, plus I. dant thh that the
cash wants to lose $200 K because we are 90 days
late. so, anyway, I pray for guidance and patience,
ad diligence that we will secure the money from
mntgeg, complete all the necessary paperwork,
and compile a letter to our credits to state on
windows, and why we stluh we need a modified
hour lonna. I know that 25,000 customers here
bready been approved by them, so if eure follow
el the procedures and give them the information fade
in a timely fashion, we should be eligible, but pay
nd being wise on purchases is very important as
d. I know that alknj dam and doing a budget
nelli see if we can do it, but I do need to see the
breakdown. I pay for the fruit of the spirit: kindness,
Gerleman, peace, Patience, Long-suffering, Meehan,
Iemdtg, self control, Lone, Joey-against such
tamp there is no law. I know that I can do all
ehinpwthwyu chest who strengthens me and
my dependence on Him is so essential in all aspects
4 my life. I pay for Goals blessing i and I know
that it niall Grace, not earned, but richly gain
• me, an mioody serrant fs lane) of Christ,
I pay all this in His precious Name, Amen.
11/18/09
well, I am just sitting here at Borders. I had a
sfficnlt session with Sri Today. she basically
compartmentalized oushvmty and said that may ann
vent need to read her Bibee and participating in
huch salinities is not important. I felt like thay
amn basically said my houseal is maccept-
b. and she said that I have not fulfilled my
fhgotim with job search, etc, and that I can't
w what I am doing very well, It was a boy 1 42
h session. hori basically showed her cohrs re-
authority and the whole feminist agenda. In
u duty, these people claim they can help but
nd up smithy gears and retracts. maya said it
as a safe place. she said she wasn't able to
onvey how she felt to me during the 2 weeks,
or her and 2mi In the feminist male trashy
the I can't get out of the house to get some
offer. But the fact of being there for the
d. dropping them off or picky them up, helpij
at with coady, chuh, website, job reach,
ad teng in p din the last 2 weeks means rotty
May ami has shared her feehjs, and she
wants me to never question ayihg her family
says and she wants to run the whole show.
aoui basically said I was the one arrested
and that I was the perpetrator, even though
e. did thh badly to May am, and she punched
one. 2mi basically doomed as because she
said-chat me wile argue eventually
and the cops will come and take the lads. ton doesn't
edge that a house divided against itself cannot
land, and even though she said she helped
with a clinic with men and their anger issues, she
as well, as I know that foster parents can't
splane man s dad, nor can the state. It is
pathetic substitute compared to the family amt.
It is like May arm wants the best of all worlds,
yet tues to undermine my spiritual leadership in
he fomby, and pitts people against me. after buy
p her wntahhty, and how I don't want to engage
her, that I don't want to argue, and have the
police come, yet, she says that I dant validate
her feelings, and that even though her feelings are
devis non-cluster ihp-eg mrhihee study,
no mae church, an bible study groups, yet I
m a monger for samy that these could help. of cant
win, and she acts like I can't have an opinion about
to matter. I am yseat right man. I want to do the
ormsby, but I don't agree with Lori, that the
bible study doesn't matter, it is healy for the
soul. May ann is doubled, and I know that
feminism is anti-family. who will be there to pich
p the pieces. may am has bazut the state into
this demonized me, doesn't show intimacy with me,
nd basically is puvohj me, It is like she well
never be happy. who even asks about azonei spouted
walk. I want to comply, but not sell out my chittom
faith. I pay for Gods' direction and will be done, Amen.
1413109
well, I am just sitting here at Borders cafe. we
went to Dimple Records to get cash back for the
DVDs and CDs that we owned. We got $ 66 bach
which is significantly more than I thought we would
get. It will help to pay for gas and basic esent.
wills this week, at least until Thursday. I know
that we have to get up really early tomminson
so we can take Many ann to work and then come
home to Daves Rent-a-car to get a rental for the
week, at least we have one car morhig which is
better than rocking. I know that we can make
it through the week, and a rental will help
many arm and her commute, I know that Keeping
a rental will alleviate getting other people to
have to help me out. anyway, we had a good mess.
age this morning on James 4:}-s. It was nice to
at convicted on my own desires and Gods remedy.
so, I received this lawsuit summons, more than
likely from Wells Fargo, which luill need to
repay, but I have to explain the delay, in
that I don't have a job or someone to borrow
money from. I just detest the way banks are
so ominous and unscrupulous. I know that they
got bailed out, but who is thadus out the
struggling consumer, homeowner. They don't
care if I don't have anything to pay back. I just
think it is ridiculous. we have all seen how the
banks have been bailed out, and how they are
still suing people, regardless of
what the bank from the govt have been grv.
It is the opposite of Robin Hood. gild from the
soon to give to the inch. Where is the justice in all of
alvis. so, I pay for Gods grace and mercy and
for peace. It is so easy to get caught up with all
of the money issues, that do no good, but merely
take away from serving God in a mere God-glorify-
emj way. I know that not having a job has felt like
poverty and want have come upon me like an armed
man. I think that the least of my issues are
honing a title at church, but tahuya care of my
family, and managing my own household well.
I know that there are lots of thmp ganz on with
respect to debtors, and feeling the bondage, but
I also know that God through Christ has a light
yolk and is not a ruinous tash master, but loves
and cares for me as an adopted son into His
langdon. I know that the world loves to strangle
out all of this and take my jog away, but in
and thayn any estuation or circumstance that I
can bring glory to God and mahanna to Him, as He
haus mean to me, and my vertical relationship
with God is close, full of love and passes onto
horizontally to my fellow brother and sister
in chest and is a godly example and shining light
6 the unsaved. I prey-that Goals grace and peace
tells my soul, and that I can walk in light,
and I pray that I can bear much fruit for Him,
and ask for all of Godi blessings on me, and
pray this all in Jesus name, Amen.
well, I am just asking here at Borders. 12/16/09
we just got done with a counselling session with
Lori. sri said that meany ann is depressed and need
to do or follow up with Barely because the Zyp vi.
addresses many arms sleep disturbance but not
u depression, I know that not warling intimacy is
not something I should take personably with all
that may am is going through, if her basic
eeds of security, rest and peace are not met. I
know that if she adds a new antidepressant to
help her out, will not necessarily make her "all
better" but it will help to lostant enjoying life
again, and not be so down and out. I hnofihat
there are many ways to get better biblically,
by latney to God, and confession of past sens,
but God is full of mercy, and gentle and
at swilley that any should perish. I know
that suffering is part of slife, but I know
that we can draw closer to God, soberly and
humbly accusing in His name, and He will give
> the desires of our heart, (new denies that
coifs Him) which is the chief aim of man.
co, anyway, I worked out pretty hard yesterday,
or l needed the rest last night, and I feel
the sore muscles in my chest today, so I know
that pway. myself and not overdoing it, but
doing a steady state workout, will not only
feel better mike immediate but will pay off in the
long-run. so, I know that I am going to be 40 on Sunday
I know that it is an age of not 30, but,
feeling young, has a lot do with how I feel and
perrien thugs. I see active life still very much a
part of my life. I know that Keeping ochre, trusty
e. God, not feeling sorry for myself, and finely
the peace in God through Jesus chest as my Lord
nd Sanwi its most important. I know that I can
to all things through chest who strengthens me.
e pray for the fruit of the spot: Kindness, Gentlemen,
'eau, Patience, Long-suffering, machines, humility,
love, joy and self-control. against such ahnip there
is no law. I know that I am so thanhuf for so may
hip in my life.. A bone to lene in, carlo drive, an.
mployment exsternseon, play Ann norby, Madison
nd Shelby and the joy they bring to Meagan and
l, health. sleep, comfort, sports club and the
help urik the girls, church, fellowship muth other
relievers, website ministry, clarity of drought,
not in jail, medications that help, friendship with
in, others who care about me, Basketball league
to keep the girls busy, fun with cat and dogs, Bible,
sible study helps, resources to grow in my faith,
intercessory prayer, sermons that correct, fed in
sobs work, opportunities to serve and shine for
lust, merry, Providence chestand scholarship
and patience, Tax refund epps, second chance
on many parts of life, Mraz arms love and support,
heats with the family, peace of mundo, physicians
and medical people helps, sympathy are sharing
counsels with others, encouragement, edification and
underserved blessings, all in chests' Name, Amen.
12/i>109
well, I am just sitting here at starbuck. I just bought
n (Phone, because it was on sale for 1999, which,
l saved shoo. so, anyway, I will give my ipod towel
to someone else, possibly, Madison, to use for study etc.
ear, I know that she is getty a B 5. so, she won't
men want it so, I can tell may amith at I can
acee my tilt on clay, to get some omary for it.
l also got and spent quite a bit today, 400 at costa
and sams, plus 'o/12 at olive tree, and '210049 at
s IT q $79 oo for the bill, and also lunch and
otcnhads. anyway, I know that we have to pay the
engine down and also come up with the mortgage
money by danway 1st. May arm meade 3400 t
the 950 from EDD, and another 950 cong
probably on Monday, and also we will need to be
able to get 9 so again next week, t the 900 or
so in VMR, if they got the Fat and also the
mail, and we are able to pay for gifts though
the holidays. I. know that otommow the 181 will
also come out, so tune to reign it m and self-control,
• walk in the spirit and not in the f.. I pay for
the funt of the spurt: Kindness, gentleness, peace,
nature, hpcffay imeehnen, humility, self-
control, love, joy-against such ahizs there is no
law. sr, anyway, I know that I had an argument
who Tim last night, and I said some thy that
l shouldn't have said. Inaba, I know that I don't
need A exim much from Tim. I don't need his
greed gifts, but to be content with what
I home, and not be covetous of anythy that he has bat
• find ambntmd with what I home. I am glad
that was able to get my bible study in this morning,
and be able to get washed in Goals word, Ibmrr
that reading and latency both make a difference in
how I meditate, not only on the words, but the
emphasis and illuminate more Gods mad. so, Throw
that tommaso I am going to imdeotape Madison in the
guitar, so e pay That I am able to be there and
also, for sholty class, I know that I can let
des Iman that our engine went out, so we have to
pay for that, so anyway, I pay for Gods graue and mercy,
ad pay for peare. I am very excited about the
dustman party at the club tomorrow, so isam glad
6 be able to go see Arata. I know that getty bad
into shape, and getty down to around Zoo by 62
valentines Pay nill be a goal that I can attain. so,
anyway, I know that the rental council be helpful
if we need it, so I pray that we wisely conserve our
many. eventually after 3 xmotgag on time-an
approval from rationale of posstbe, tax-money
toward PCs and try to pay off creditors as much
• possible, in addition to hey wise, and maximize
in taxes as best we can, and not squanders our
time, money or energy is pivotal, and not hay caught
• with negatively, and managing my own household
well are all vital. I pay for Gods gracie and mey,
and I ask all of this. in Jesus precious name,
rd for His glory, amen.
12/29/09
well, I am just sitting here at Borders cafe. we
last got dore at Soccer Goalie olivine and Madison
and shelly areme bach doing thew reading and staff,
so anyway, the ae suppose to come back and read
cheri books here. well, I tracked to Many annand
he is going to home the car until Thursday, so that
will be a big help, and I can wait at least natal
Monday before we have to use the rental car. so, I
led a little better muh my sinuses today. I know
that drinking lots of water and being able to use
the saline as opposed to using the high antihistamine
group is important and necessary, so I don't
buy out my nasal passages I hopbably can keep
sinus infection from mummy. I know that by
ranking lots of water, and breathing steam,
ad reducing the allergens, will help it outside
A- to mention honig an ienwommevlally clean house
and being healthy, and not letty all the polera,
canders and other things from accumulating in the
ruse. so, in addition to Aahvj care of myself,
bring the environment to be healthier, reducing the
Argus (dogs cats, vacuum, etc, the I dent other
dings, so along with taking care of myself, and other
issues, hopefully, it won't be chronic sinusitis
or rhinitis, or something else that would require
droids, or surgery, and could just be seasonal.
o, anyway, I know that we are going to have to deal more
with nation star in the coming days, and if in fact
they did deny the claim, and are able to
get some type of reduction in the price she is
paying from $2,360-or down to $1860, enchant
panicky as. I tried to explain that Meany arms
take home is the whole first pay chech and we
don't have anything to live on for two weeks, while
makes it not affordable at it its current rate, so
I pay for mercy by the loan company.. anyway,
I think that letting them know that we have
car trouble and a $ 4,000 bill for a new engine will
also be setting ns back significantly meth not
only the repair hell, but also the car rental, and
other bills. I an glad Jan sent out the prayer
chain letter to help for intercession, and not
just keeping all our problems to ourselves. so,
anyway, I prey for Gods grace and merry, and
for His word. I am glad that the girls and I cann
spend time together this meeks. I know that they
are enjoying this week off, and I pray that we can
use it wisely. I would like them to purge their rooms
and be able to help out with de. shuttering, salihah
that it is vital to be able to get some tax deductions
by the end of the year ter maximize our refund, as
well as pay off PCs, and get an car engine
fixed. I know that I have to pick up my
fine arm and also felt out a response letter ter
wells' 7 argo, so I pay for Gods grace and
may, and for peace and grace, and I ask
for all of this in Jesus precious name and
for His glory, amen.