The Source of My Salvation
Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me (John 15:4).
I'm afraid and it is wrong because I am afraid that You will not be able to overcome my shortcomings; that I will end up destroyed and a curse to those around me even if I surrender all to you and allow you to be my "goto" person יום יום.
Simply put, I must push through this for I think that it plays a large role in my failure to consistently press into You. If I really believed that You are salvation (אלישׁע), then I would gladly come to You.
- So let's get this straight. Pushing forward into oblivion has not brought results these many years and yielded only very inconsistent (to the point of uselessness) interaction with You.
- There is resistance to pushing into You and trusting You despite the circumstances brought on by my shortcomings.